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A weekend.

It was a long weekend, and it was full of many things. Perhaps a mini-review is in order.

Good things.
  • Got to play three evenings, including two play parties.
  • Three scenes involved the cane, which was lovely. One involved the singletail, which was also lovely.
  • Saw lots of friends, many of whom I have not seen in some time.
  • Fun conversations about singletails and their structure, made future plans with people, and starting to think about reorganizing my apartment. 
  • A yummy dim sum excursion with lots of friends, and picking up delicious dragon fruit for future munching.
Funny things.
  • On my way to a play party on Saturday night, I ripped my pants open while getting into my car. The tear was right along the seam in my crotch, and thus for the rest of the drive, my cock and balls were hanging free out of my pants. It was a surreal experience to be able to feel myself so intimately while driving the NJ highways. It was even more surreal darting into a Taco Bell restroom to quickly change jeans so that I avoided any indecent exposure charges. 
Challenging things.
  • My day to day life is changing in a major way right now. I have been very resistant to this change, but I have no choice but to accept it. It's not something I want, and I am having difficulty turning it into something positive for me. I know why it is happening, and I understand it... but it is still making me very very sad. (I know this was very cryptic - sorry, but that's the way the cookie crumbles.)
  • A lot of my weekend was spent assisting this major change. It was certainly not something I wanted to do, but it was something I needed to do. Being the supportive person in the face of personal pain is a really tough thing to handle. But I am trying to be a good, understanding person.
  • All this cryptic stuff is requiring me to face a lot of fears, and to place faith in things that are beyond my direct control. I am working on fighting off my paranoia, and my martyr complex. It is hard. Very hard.
Important things.
  • I've had conversations that should in the long run increase my faith and comfort level, and reduce the possibility of misunderstandings. I am trying to do things right. I am trying to allow things to succeed on their own accord.
It was an eventful weekend. Full of joy and struggle and change.

Comments

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desiringsubject
Sep. 4th, 2007 04:40 pm (UTC)
::hugs:: on the hard stuff.

::chuckles:: on the jeans. But really, I think you should definitely keep that pair of jeans for other occasions. I can see them being... convenient!
stacinavale
Sep. 4th, 2007 04:44 pm (UTC)
Thank you again for your attention on Friday night. *hugs* If you ever need anything, just know Im not too far. I might even try to control myself and not try to hurt you! *lol*

p.s. my legs blossomed purple all over the tops of my thighs!
luna_littleone
Sep. 4th, 2007 04:57 pm (UTC)
Change is never easy.
If it was people would do it all the time.
I hope things get easier for you.

*hugs*
naudia
Sep. 4th, 2007 04:59 pm (UTC)
You know my e-mail if you wish someone to talk to who is uninvolved in any of it. *hugs*
being_elodie
Sep. 4th, 2007 05:04 pm (UTC)
I hope things will work out. *Hugs*
melebeth
Sep. 4th, 2007 05:07 pm (UTC)
*sends support and a promise of homemade baked goods of your choice*

Also, I mock your pants. But in a pleasant friendly way.
cleovale
Sep. 4th, 2007 05:13 pm (UTC)
*hug*

I know you have numerous people willing to lend an ear or shoulder... but please remember that if you need to talk/vent/whatever, you have my #.
iamtrogdor
Sep. 4th, 2007 05:17 pm (UTC)
This might sound like a stupid question... but isn't that one of the reasons why we wear underwear? :-P
jd_trouble
Sep. 4th, 2007 06:06 pm (UTC)
Phil's platoon is commando only.
willowrrain
Sep. 4th, 2007 10:04 pm (UTC)
You are in my thoughts.
katestine
Sep. 4th, 2007 11:59 pm (UTC)
I have one particular... mark on my belly, along the vertical axis, that caused my primper to ask, "Did you burn yourself with an iron?" *facepalm*
warmsapphiretes
Sep. 5th, 2007 04:44 pm (UTC)
I like to think that when change happens it is always for the best. Sometimes when going *through* the thing that is changing, it can be hard to keep that in mind. Someone else said change isn't easy and they're right. Hang in there.
haptotrope
Sep. 13th, 2007 08:28 pm (UTC)
ah the celeb gossipness mugshot track.
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