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How could I forget?

Today, I found my music again. I can't believe I left it to the side for so, so long. But tonight, I found it, and awoke again to that side of me that is so important. Music has always filled my life... and I really left it aside for a long time.

Tonight, it was reacquainting myself with friends old and somewhat new. I skipped and jumped throughout the musical spectrum. Depeche Mode, Morcheeba, Massive Attack, Gomez, Cake, Dzihan & Kamien, Clutch, Jane's Addiction... I jumped and skipped and danced and laughed. A tear now and then... music has always hit the emotional side of me. But, it was a good thing.

The apartment hunt continues. I have a lead... an amazing lead on a 1-bedroom apartment, that is going frightingly cheap. Problem is the guy is waffling... now he's not sure if he actually wants to rent it out. I have succumbed to begging. A letter-writing campaign may soon take place. ;-) He's a fellow leather activist, so he should be expecting it. *evil grin*

I see images of me in my apartment, the sun shining in, my music playing nice and loud, lifting me as I flutter through my place. I have the dream. Now I need to make it a reality.

I'm living. I'm still here.

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petemosq
May. 4th, 2003 09:21 pm (UTC)
No Place like home
I'll make sure to give you a KISS CD or poster as a housewarming gift. :-) Good luck with the new place.
boy1der
May. 4th, 2003 11:47 pm (UTC)
Happy to hear it! I do that every once in a while too. When I had my appartment I always had music on. Oh, how I miss dancing through my appartment. If I tried that in this appartment I'd break something.

Groing up, music was my only weapon against my mom. It help to block out her and her christian music. It was the only thing that kept me going many times. It still helps to fill my head and chase away the voices of shame, regret, doubt and anger that keep me from going to sleep and getting work done.

I used to always go to sleep with music on. It helped me rest. Can't do that anymore now that I live with David. He's a light sleeper. Oh well, maybe some day I'll haev my own room again.

Best wishes with the appartment search.
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karithebootgirl
May. 5th, 2003 05:32 am (UTC)
This post made me smile. I've known you were there all along
I'm glad you know it too :)
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