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Mondays are a bitch.

This should prove to be a most interesting week. Let's see if I can survive it.

Lots of work to get done, since the holidays are coming and my industry basically shuts down once they hit. All my work needs to be done by then.

Of course, to help assist me on that, the wonderful Kings County judicial system has selected me for jury duty, beginning on Thursday. Fun.

And then, on top of all that, I get the rudest wake up call one can ever imagine. My only remaining grandfather had a stroke last night, and was just coming out of ICU this morning. More on that later. Lots, and lots of thoughts about that one.

Tally ho, right?

Fuck.

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sirkenandsubg
Dec. 15th, 2003 07:22 am (UTC)
You can usually get a six month extension from jury duty because of work issues.
Lots of love and support being sent your way for you and your family. It is a tough time of year for a family member to be sick and in the hospital.
sirkenandsubg
Dec. 15th, 2003 08:48 am (UTC)
I started to write a comment to the next post but it got too long. Check out my entry.
Lots of love to you.
kimberlogic
Dec. 15th, 2003 07:26 am (UTC)
*hugs*

Good wishes to you and your family, babe.
abtarchive
Dec. 15th, 2003 07:38 am (UTC)
I'm sorry you've been handed yet more *stuff*...and I'm sorry that in addition to feeling stressed, you feel conflicted over some of it. I can identify in some ways, I had very conflicted emotions over my grandmother. If you ever want to commmiserate, or need a listener, count me in.

In the mean time, I'm sending warm thoughts your way.
cyanidetablet
Dec. 15th, 2003 07:44 am (UTC)
I know you and Grandpa never got along due to his relationship with your dad. You're right when you say both parties were guilty. I've heard the stories, too. I don't blame you for your feelings towards him, I think you're justified.

There are things in this world that you can do, and there are things that you cannot do. In this case, you can go to the hospital and you can take the first step towards patching the broken relationship - or you can not. Should you decide to, perhaps it will be successful. Should you decide not to, perhaps you will never get another chance. That's a choice only you can make.

Grandpa is a stubborn, stuck up, pain in the ass and he would rather continue doing something the wrong way than admit that he didn't know how to do it right to begin with. That's just him. Just something you have to accept about him in order to have any sort of relationship.

I hope you DO go to see him - even if nothing else ever comes from it. I hope that you do take that first step, because you know he won't.

And although you might not have perceived it, or felt it, he has always loved you. Perhaps he doesn't LIKE you - in fact I'm sure he doesn't at times. Hell, I don't particularly like you at times (which I'm sure is mutual, and that's fine). But he loves you, even if you don't know it.
panther
Dec. 15th, 2003 11:52 am (UTC)
I have to echo what she said here. I know your Grandfather, and I have heard the stories. I suspect that it is beyond the patching up phase, but being able to say "I'm here, I am your grandson" might do wonders for both of you.

*sending hugs to you, regardless of the situations or outcomes*
ex_mommabear187
Dec. 15th, 2003 08:49 am (UTC)
The only thing I can say, after reading both entries, is that, no matter what, if you do the right thing, despite others feelings and reactions, you will always know *you* tried. You did the right thing.

I know you will go and be a good grandchild, like you're a good friend, and a generally good person. If you need anything, I'm here.
angel320
Dec. 15th, 2003 11:56 am (UTC)
I've read both entries...all I can tell you from past, painful experience is that you cannot change the past...
try to enjoy the time you have left...trite as this sounds...those are the memories you will have left to cling to...that you were there...that you cared enough to be there...the past is the past - and right now, the present is all you got...
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