I have come to terms with the fact that I have acted irresponsibly in the past.
I have acted irresponsibly because I did not honor my partners well. I did not honor their feelings towards me... and made judgement calls that were not mine to make. I made ill-timed decisions that had more impact than I allowed myself to predict... and I believe I am still feeling the ramifications of these decisions to this day.
I have not given my partners the attention and devotion that they deserve.
It is a new year, and one theoretically starts the year out fresh. So, to do that, allow me this one weepy emo-shit post to clear my head somewhat.
To those I have scorned... to those who I fucked up with... to you, who's devotion I misread, and acted so irresponsibly about, and in the end shot myself in the foot worse than I could have ever feared....