May 7th, 2001

Life - oy.

There are so many things happening in my life right now that I don't have the faintest of clues where to begin.

Friday at work was another black Friday... 15 more people laid off at my company, 5 in my department, including one of my assistants. I'm being placed in another group, which means I'll be on my 6th boss in 3 years at the company. So, it goes without saying that I was shaky come end of day Friday.

Thankfully, Kate is a goddess. That girl is so amazing... I fall more and more deeply in love with her as seconds click by. She had a glass of port waiting for me when I got home, and took me out to see Riverdance.

Saturday managed to be a hectic, yet absolutely wonderful day. Had TES stuff to do all afternoon, that night met D and C at a restaurant with other TNGers.

At Paddles, Kate met me... That night she took my collar. It looked absolutely amazing on her... a chain web collar with a heavy Master lock clasping it on her neck. When it was time to take it off on Sunday night, she frowned. God I love her.

Had a great scene with D. I deliberately pushed up the intensity a bit... I knew how far she could go, and wanted to play the edge a bit. Word back is a good time all around... D is a wonderful soul... and a pure blessing to me that she hold a part within my life. I find myself thanking whomever it is that floats above us that I am surrounded by such amazing people. Thank you D.

Sunday was spent relaxing... and taking more cherries from Kate. Did I mention that I am loving her? But, come Sunday night, I couldn't get to sleep. Too freaking worried about the coming week. So far so good today, but I think it is the calm in the middle of the storm. Everyone is still feeling their way out.

Thankfully, I have more great things to look forward to. Next Sat Kate and I double date with my sis L and her slave to Great Adventure. Memorial Day I get to spend in Chicago surrounded by over 5000 men in leather at International Mr. Leather, enjoying time with my leather family. After that, almost a week in adult paradise when I go to Leather Retreat.

I suppose I am just going to have to accept that my life will not ever be smooth sailing... that there will always be a curveball to worry about. My brain convinced me that there will have to be such a time when the waters are still and everything is just nice... I guess a bit of a naive Candide within me.

"This clearly must be the best of all possible worlds."

And life goes on.