May 3rd, 2003

Damn brain.

There are nights that I hate my brain. This was one of them. It is now 6 in the morning... I haven't been able to get to sleep at all. For a while, I was afraid to go to bed. I didn't want to be in my room, alone, in my small bed, alone.

Then I tried. And it just wouldn't happen. My mind was whirling, thinking about tonight, stressing, depressed, etc. Nothing I could do about it, try as I did.

I tried X-Box therapy for a while, thinking a video game would numb me to sleep. Nope.

I'm gonna go try again. But, it seems pretty silly... to be going to bed at 6 AM... and nothing to show for it.

I hate my brain. I hate this.