May 4th, 2004

Must. Stop. Hands. From. Shaking.

Want your coffee nicely stirred? Put them in my hands.

I am a nervous fucking wreck. My muscles are tighter than they have ever been. My neck has tightened up to the point that it hurts to turn my head even the slightest amount to the right. My stomach has an entire swarm of butterflies dress rehearsing their chaotic mating rituals inside it. And I have a headache.

I can't believe this move has me so agitated. My brain knows and recognizes all the logical and accurate statements - this is gonna be great, this is the best thing to happen, you will love it, blah blah blah. But it doesn't matter. I'm still worrying like a Jewish grandmother doting on her grandson without a hat.

The entire remainder of my being is freaking out. And, I can't even really put a finger on why. The move itself? The process of arranging the apartment? Living alone? Grocery shopping/food? I can't get the fucking apartment out of my head. I lie down to go to sleep, and my brain goes to ludicrous speed thinking about what needs to be done - hell, I've gone to plaid.

I need a beer. Or drugs. A blowjob would do nicely too. Something.

ARGH!!! I WISH IT WAS OVER ALREADY!!!!!!!!
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Breathe in... breathe out.

After a nice walk through the Village during lunch, I'm feeling a lot better. Nothing like some fresh air and movement.

I think Sweets was right in her comment to my freaking out post. It is the WAIT that is killing me. I want to get it over and done with.

Amazingly enough, I just about finished packing last night. Which considering my current emotional level could be more of a hinderance. Ah well.

One more day. Just one more day.
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NYC

Always be careful when a sentimental fool types...

This will be my final post from a Brooklyn household that I am living in.

(Like the way I phrased that? Cleared me for posting during all Brooklyn visits. Well harumph to you! I thought it was very clever. *thbt*)

Tomorrow, I will post from my new apartment.

Wow. Just... wow.
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