Not sure. But, that's alright.
eisa is on her way here, and I will get to enjoy her calming presence. Then we head out for LR tomorrow afternoon.
In the meantime, I am sitting in my apartment, procrastinating from packing while listening to Faithless' Reverence album. Specifically track three, Salva Mea. A song that brings me back to the first time I truly tried MDMA, and blissfully rocked back into love and dance with my then partner. Just the two of us alone, sweaty, heated, animalistic passion, love and life.
It's June 22nd, and I have seen 15 apartments, give or take a couple. I have until July 31st to move out of my current place. I think I'm doing OK.
I'm breathing. I'm going to go to camp tomorrow, teach my classes, spend time with friends, play with eisa , and possibly get photographed by Barbara Nitke during a scene with lolitasir . I am going to do my best to put all of this shit I have been through off to the side for 3 days.