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Today might be the first time in a while that I actually work a full day without bolting out early.

I feel better today. Yesterday I almost broke down several times. Had to excuse myself to go outside and have a cigarette so I could avoid crying in front of my father. I'm sure the exhaution played a role in my emotional outbursts. It was also hard to put him into a nursing home. Logically, I know that he is only there for short term rehab, and not everyone is there for long-term care... but... still... the majority of people who enter never move back home. It was hard seeing my relatively young father surrounded by folks much older.

I hate the 34th street station on the B/D/F/V line. The red colors, the subdued lighting. It's very depressing.

Conversely, I love the new little dioramas in the 42nd Street/Time Square station. Especially the ones found while exiting the Q/N/R/W platform and going upstairs. Each depicts a little slice of life in NYC. They are done in a jovial, almost art deco style. They make me smile.

With my father in Coney Island, I won't be visiting as much during the week. Too long of a haul. So tonight, I get a special treat in seeing lolitasir. I can't wait. I love my sis so much... she balances me. It's been way too long since we spent time together, and I need her. I need her hugs. I need her presence.

I won't be going to Inferno this year. Between the logistics, and the timing, and my father, it was best to bow out. I might try to pull off a more manageable weekend at Dark Odyssey.  If I can pull off the funds and timing. Maybe even bring a friend.

I miss dahling.

I wish I could say I was looking forward to sleeping in this weekend, because I know for a fact it ain't happening. I'll probably go visit my father on Saturday, and I might need to take our car in for service. On Sunday, we have my grandmother's gravestone unveiling. So, now I get to deal with my entire other side of the family. Who are, as a collective group, idiots. Especially one uncle in particular. I will not put up with his aggressive behavior this weekend. Especially when I have so much steam to let out.

Oh yeah, TES elections are coming up. I'm not voting for 007. That much is certain. If he does wind up taking on a representative position for TES, I will have to a lot of thinking. I do not believe he deserves to be nor should be a representative of this organization.

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abtarchive
Aug. 16th, 2006 06:39 pm (UTC)
*hug* I'm thinking of you and sending good thoughts your way. I understand some of what you are going through with your dad...at least the feelings and fears associated with a sick parent.

*more hugs*
purplepathos
Aug. 16th, 2006 06:43 pm (UTC)
My mom was in a nursing home for about two months in between surgeries when she broke her leg two years ago, and it was really scary for me to see her there, too. I'm glad she's out and doing well on her own, but I'm watching her grow older and it's so hard. I know you and I don't know each other that well, but I've been thinking of you and hoping for the best for you. Keep on taking care of yourself. See you at DO, maybe. *hug*
ironrose
Aug. 16th, 2006 06:45 pm (UTC)
I just wanted to say that I am still here, still reading all of your cut-tagged entries. If you need something that I can help with, just let me know. It's hard being far away.
lolitasir
Aug. 16th, 2006 06:47 pm (UTC)
How about ravioli, salad and ice cream?
boymeat
Aug. 16th, 2006 07:04 pm (UTC)
That sounds lovely.
lolitasir
Aug. 16th, 2006 08:17 pm (UTC)
Can we go up on the roof, too? Huh?
deeahblita
Aug. 16th, 2006 06:56 pm (UTC)
Can you confirm a rumor? I heard dahling is planning to move in with another chick but last I knew she was interested in the room in my apartment.

I've never gotten a call from her just promises of calls and I've got someone else genuinely interested in the room and a loooming rent deadline but j contacted me first.

Sigh.
boymeat
Aug. 16th, 2006 07:04 pm (UTC)
I cannot confirm. I know she is traveling right now and is very difficult to reach.
finubala
Aug. 16th, 2006 07:11 pm (UTC)
*hug* Thinking of you.
contessagrrl
Aug. 16th, 2006 07:42 pm (UTC)
Just want you to know that I'm thinking about you, and worrying about you and sending as much positive energy as I can muster in your direction.

You're amazing. Your family is so fortunate to have you (as are we all). Please do what you can to take care of yourself.

*hugs*
cleovale
Aug. 16th, 2006 07:52 pm (UTC)
sounds like you need a night with someone cooking for you, giving you a massage, and then conking out early.
*love and stuff*
lolitasir
Aug. 16th, 2006 08:17 pm (UTC)
Massage too? Nope. That is pushing it.
cleovale
Aug. 16th, 2006 09:25 pm (UTC)
lol.. far be it from me to suggest it would be you doing it.. I was speaking more generally..
tho' he'll probably get more out of an evening with you than he would the other stuff from someone else. :)
cleovale
Aug. 16th, 2006 09:26 pm (UTC)
good lord I just decimated the english language in that reply.
kathryntact
Aug. 16th, 2006 11:55 pm (UTC)
I hope your father is able to rehabilitate happily in the place that you helped find for him. Truly. :-)

I thought this was interesting, and wanted to point you in the direction of: http://www.soulhuntre.com/items/date/2006/08/16/let-the-witch-hunting-begin/ in regards to TES and 007.

The internet really is a small, small world...especially in regards to the kink communities. You don't even have to live somewhere to know what is going on in their groups now...good or bad. ;-)

qnetter
Aug. 17th, 2006 03:50 am (UTC)
My back wants a raincheck. :)

Seriously, we'll miss you a lot, and hope to see you soon.
boymeat
Aug. 18th, 2006 03:00 am (UTC)
Thank you Roger. It does kill me to think I won't get to enjoy time together again.

I'll miss you too.
devina
Aug. 17th, 2006 03:26 pm (UTC)
Thinking good thoughts for your dad, your family, and you.
boymeat
Aug. 18th, 2006 03:00 am (UTC)
Thank you... very much.
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