- I have a tongue fetish.
- I no longer need to play as much as I have.
- Fluidity is key.
- I AM a switch, and I enjoy bottoming.
I then allowed something very strange, which I alluded to in previous posts. I let dahling top me, using the many bondage toys I had been collecting over the years (taking care to blow off the dust that I also collected with them). I really, really got into that, and looked to do more. We experimented with a little impact play... a little cane here, a little cane there.
At Leather Retreat, I would sometimes get punched by someone. A friend, a leather family member. I hated it, but put on a good face. It was too assaulting, too sudden, too much force at once. But then I bottomed in two "formal" scenes. holey1 redid my cutting while teaching a bloodsports class, and we definitely turned it into a scene. I confirmed that I loved getting cut... the feeling of the scalpel so exquisite. Earlier than that, I was sitting on the porch, just relaxing in the early evening, and holey1 began to cane my thigh. I sat there and took it at first because she is my Momma Bear, and I am a good boy. But soon, as the light, whippy cane came down in almost a metronome fashion on my thigh, I began writhing. I loved this! The slow build up in pain and sensation was so exquisite, so good.
Yes lolitasir, I enjoy getting caned. Even better with the friction. (Sorry folks... inside joke.)
Maybe it's all about balance. Maybe it was a little shame. But, I'm happy again to be who I am.