thoughtfulGood things.
- Got to play three evenings, including two play parties.
- Three scenes involved the cane, which was lovely. One involved the singletail, which was also lovely.
- Saw lots of friends, many of whom I have not seen in some time.
- Fun conversations about singletails and their structure, made future plans with people, and starting to think about reorganizing my apartment.
- A yummy dim sum excursion with lots of friends, and picking up delicious dragon fruit for future munching.
- On my way to a play party on Saturday night, I ripped my pants open while getting into my car. The tear was right along the seam in my crotch, and thus for the rest of the drive, my cock and balls were hanging free out of my pants. It was a surreal experience to be able to feel myself so intimately while driving the NJ highways. It was even more surreal darting into a Taco Bell restroom to quickly change jeans so that I avoided any indecent exposure charges.
- My day to day life is changing in a major way right now. I have been very resistant to this change, but I have no choice but to accept it. It's not something I want, and I am having difficulty turning it into something positive for me. I know why it is happening, and I understand it... but it is still making me very very sad. (I know this was very cryptic - sorry, but that's the way the cookie crumbles.)
- A lot of my weekend was spent assisting this major change. It was certainly not something I wanted to do, but it was something I needed to do. Being the supportive person in the face of personal pain is a really tough thing to handle. But I am trying to be a good, understanding person.
- All this cryptic stuff is requiring me to face a lot of fears, and to place faith in things that are beyond my direct control. I am working on fighting off my paranoia, and my martyr complex. It is hard. Very hard.
- I've had conversations that should in the long run increase my faith and comfort level, and reduce the possibility of misunderstandings. I am trying to do things right. I am trying to allow things to succeed on their own accord.
