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Alright, anything else???

I've heard, well Phil, it can't get any worse. And, of course, as is my fate, it did.

Got an urgent call while I was at Paddles from back home. To make a long story short, I drove home faster than I ever knew how, so my father could take my mother to the emergency room. (FYI - they didn't call 911, because the ambulance would bring her to one of the worst hospitals in existance... we would rather she have good care.) I don't think this is serious... but, the way my luck has been, lets just say I'm a little concerend. I'm now sitting here at 5 in the morning, too jazzed up to go to bed... thus, this post.

These past 3 weeks have been an absolute living hell. Not only have I lost the love of my life, my entire planned future, my happiness and security... I'm at the point at which I have no fucking clue what I have. And there are people close to me who aren't helping at all. In fact, they made the situation worse... akin to lighting a powder keg underneath my ass.

So you know what? No fucking more. If you don't have anything good to say to me, don't bother. As it is my life is spriraling out of control... it doesn't need anymore help.

This sucks.


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Apr. 6th, 2003 03:46 am (UTC)
I hope everything works out ok. I wish you peace my brother. That and an even break.
Apr. 6th, 2003 05:23 am (UTC)
Oy! You are really NOT getting much of a break from the world these days. I hope that your Mom is ok.

I'm wishing for you all good things - whatever you want for yourself, plus peace, love, health, strength, success and joy. I hope that these things come to you, and soon.


Apr. 6th, 2003 06:23 am (UTC)
Apr. 6th, 2003 06:28 am (UTC)
My bio brother once said to me, "When life hands you lemons, make apple juice."
Yeah, my brother is kinda 'special.' But you knew this.
Yet his little twisted saying kinda makes sense, if you think about it.

Anyway, it seemed appropriate for the moment.
Apr. 6th, 2003 07:59 am (UTC)
Apr. 6th, 2003 08:36 am (UTC)
I hope your mom is ok
I know how it feels to be thrown one thing after another when you think you can least handle it. but you'll make it through. When everything seems out of control and chaotic, take stock of the things you _can_ control (and want to)
baby steps if you need :)
you know I'm always here for you
Apr. 6th, 2003 08:59 am (UTC)
Apr. 6th, 2003 09:15 am (UTC)
*hug* I'm so sorry this is happening to you. If you want someone to talk to I'm a good listener.
I'm not only interested in you beating me. ;)
Really, if there's anything I can do, let me know.
Love ya.t
Apr. 6th, 2003 11:01 am (UTC)
oh Goddess. Huge hugs to you, and I am thinking good thoughts for your mom. She's been through a lot, too.......


Apr. 6th, 2003 03:19 pm (UTC)
Times like these give one the opportunity to reflect and really take stock of ones life. It is spring after all.

This year has been hard on a lot of us. But we're going to make it through anyhow ;)

As for life spiraling out of your control. When Life becomes a crewl mystress all you can do is surrender and become her willing bitch. And sometimes that can be fun too :)
Apr. 7th, 2003 10:05 am (UTC)
If I'm ever going through a rough patch, someone please remind me of boy1der's advice: "As for life spiraling out of your control. When Life becomes a crewl mystress all you can do is surrender and become her willing bitch. And sometimes that can be fun too"
Apr. 7th, 2003 10:12 am (UTC)
Hell, Someone remind me of my own advice when I'm going through a rough spot. :D
How about I'll remind you and you remind me :D Deal?
Apr. 7th, 2003 10:06 am (UTC)
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