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As the number grows, reflection begins.

So... 34.

That's some number. Frankly, I had just gotten used to 33. I kind of liked 33... it has a bright, shiny, happy look to it. 34 looks so much more industrial, hard, edgy to me. Ha. Me, talking about design. Funny.

So... 34.

I really enjoyed being 33. I had a lot of really amazing things happen to me when I was 33. I mean, holy fuck life changing things.

Like having wonderful amazing people enter my life, and touch me with their presence. Relationships that have come and gone, but managed to keep connection and care and promise of fun and good in the future. New relationships that are now, and happening, and growing, with a wonderful amazing "niece" who will likely be around my life for a long long time.

Like living with my partner for more than a year. Having my love, kathryntact with me day in and day out. Acting as my rock, as my teammate, as my partner in life and crime and joy and sad and the absolute craziness that is our very beings. Filling my life with amazing happiness, stability, comfort, safety, and the knowledge that I am with my soul mate.

And then there were the things that not as many people know. Things I haven't written about, because 33 was a year of nesting. A year of retreating from the world, from my public persona, and living quietly out of the spotlight. I've kept some things to myself... but I'm 34 now. Time to share.

Time to share things like how when I was 33, I went from a person who had a job to a person who truly has a career. I went from having a lame word like "supervisor" in my title, and somehow managed to exchange it for something as lofty as "Vice President." Me, a VP. Who would have thunk it? I mean, really?

Or... the fact that when I entered the age of 34, I no longer smoked. That for the last week of 33, I had begun the process to stop smoking, and that I can now say that I have not had a cigarette for my entire 34-year-old being. That despite being told by the instruction manual that I would be wearing the patch for 3 months or even more, in less than I week I am patch-less.

The fact that I am not doing it alone, that my love is doing it with me... and we haven't killed each other.

So... 34.

I enter this age more of an adult than I think I have ever been. A hard working, career-minded person who is dedicated to being a VP, perhaps slightly more than I am being Boymeat... someone who is finally taking charge of my willpower and his health and has stopped a filthy habit that I enjoyed so much, yet knew would kill me. A harder working Phil, ready for the light at the end of the tunnel.

Hi 34. Let's see how you fit.


( 19 comments — Leave a comment )
Oct. 1st, 2010 03:01 am (UTC)
Way to go. On all fronts.
Oct. 1st, 2010 03:06 am (UTC)
34 will do nicely for you.

Happy birthday! May the days of this year of your life bring you much joy and growth.

~ Pug *birthday snortles

Edited at 2010-10-01 03:07 am (UTC)
Oct. 1st, 2010 03:27 am (UTC)
Congratulations and happy birthday! And, good luck and good work on quitting smoking! :) *lots of hugs*
Oct. 1st, 2010 03:32 am (UTC)
Congrats on your decision to quit. I quit cigars this August and it's hard. Good luck to you and kathryn on it.

Oct. 1st, 2010 03:50 am (UTC)
Happy birthday, young man!

And VP, congratulations! Wow, last I recall you were worried about not being able to advance! I guess it's been a while, huh?

Oh and quit smoking? Awesome!

Thanks for the update, handsome!

Edited at 2010-10-01 03:50 am (UTC)
Oct. 1st, 2010 05:09 am (UTC)
Omg! Happy (late) bday and uber Congrats on everything! So glad everything is awesome for you and hope your 34th year just increases in awesomeness :D
Oct. 1st, 2010 07:35 am (UTC)
Awesome, awesome, awesome!

(And now you'll be awesome even longer.)
Oct. 1st, 2010 09:46 am (UTC)

happy 34 - and congrats on the quitting of smoking. Both are admirable accomplishments.

the career thing is pretty cool too : )
Oct. 1st, 2010 10:00 am (UTC)
Wow, 33 has brought a LOT of changes for you. I hope 34 is even better.
Oct. 1st, 2010 10:02 am (UTC)
Happy Late Birthday!!!!
Glad you are well
Oct. 1st, 2010 12:26 pm (UTC)
Congratulations! On all of it. Change is hard and I'm proud of you and looking forward to celebrating all that 34 is bringing. YAAY!
Oct. 1st, 2010 01:35 pm (UTC)

Happy Birthday, middleagedtofumale!

Oct. 1st, 2010 03:26 pm (UTC)
Happy belated birthday! Super awesome on the no smoking :)
Oct. 1st, 2010 03:42 pm (UTC)
*filled with love*

SO glad you are in my life, Mister.
Oct. 1st, 2010 04:34 pm (UTC)
Just happy for you kid. So happy and so proud.

Dr. Aunt
Oct. 1st, 2010 08:35 pm (UTC)
Happy belate birthday!

Congrats on your love, promotion/career, and being healthier.
Oct. 2nd, 2010 01:21 am (UTC)
Congrats, happy b-day, and holy pants, do I miss the heck out of you guys.
Oct. 2nd, 2010 07:07 am (UTC)
I'm glad you quit smoking.
I still can't believe youre "only" 34, tho. :)
Time flies.
Oct. 4th, 2010 01:25 pm (UTC)
34 is going to be a sweet year --- enjoy the ride.

Happy Birthday with naked boobie hugs from Vancouver BC

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